"I would rather be a ghost. Being a motherfucking ghost was a lot easier to deal with! But then Wash had to do a stupid little speech, and then the Meta happened, and..."

Church faces her. "We were all there. Everyone but Epsilon. And it felt--you were there. You know what it felt like. And I don't know how you do this. I'd ignore it if I could, except then my voice is on the network and it isn't me, and people say my name without meaning me, and it's fucking me up, okay? I'm fucked up. I am fucking up."