ghostthatlingers | Sanctum IC Contact

I wouldn't know if you're better or worse because you say fuck all.

Connie was right. You're a shadow.

Every time I've tried you've blown me the fuck off and then come back with shitty promises to make it up or gone on about your own drama. With all the bullshit you've mixed yourself up in, I didn't think you'd want mine to pile on top and drown in.

I'm not a fucking shadow and if you want to start pulling that bullshit and calling be 'Beta,' come say it to my damn face.

Once. I've blown you off once. I DIED helping you. And sure, my life's a fucking mess but your shit isn't gonna be what makes me swallow a gun. So either talk like you mean it or quit treating me like we're bffs, because I know jack dick about you other than what came from that chip and what you told me before I went off and got shot.

See I would- but then you'd get all weird and brainspaced because of that thing that happened to you- and not only would that not be any fun it'd be really fucking unpleasant for you afterward. So until that gets fixed? Not going there. I'll wait till you can actually hit me.

I call you shadow because that's all I know! I know more about Allison than I know about you, and she's been dead forever.

I don't know jack shit about you either beyond all the people you've been fucking here and that you have a damn gun shop stored on every block, so the feeling is mutual. I've helped you out here and I've been doing what I can to pay that goddamn debt, or have you forgotten about me hauling my ass out of bed in the middle of the night to help some dumbasses I've never even met before?

I don't know what you're expecting of me. I don't spew out every personal detail at a whim just because I've had a beer. I don't even do that with Church and I'm fucking him.

I thought I could trust you, but every decision I make here brings you yelling at my door even when they don't affect you. All of you assholes are expecting too fucking much of me. Sorry I'm not your perfect dumb bitch that got herself killed years ago. Maybe things would be better if I were.

Allow me to clarify the last thing I said: I know her better than you, and I know like five things other than her name and relation to Carolina. The only person that expects you to be her is the Director. I don't know what Church wants you to be. I don't know what Carolina wants you to be but I'm pretty sure it's not her mother. I don't know what Omega wants you to be other than his and that's something I'm not touching with a ten foot pole.

All I want, all I've ever wanted was for you to be honest. And here you are, finally, being honest. Not that you lied before but a lack of information is really fucking annoying. You hate flying blind. So do I. You know that. The choices you make have me yelling because you don't explain why! You talked me down from the director by making some kind of sense as to why you're backing him.

I don't agree. I don't get it. But I'm not as mad as I am about this. The last memory I had of you was you wanting Omega dead. This is a big fucking jump that I don't get and we both know your head has been fucked with here once. So other than "I know him well and I'll make sure he doesn't hurt anyone" which is valid. Worrying, but valid, explain to me WHY you want him to stay with you.

Then, fuck, I don't know, ask me something and I'll explain myself to you. I kind of owe you that.

You haven't given me a good reason for why you need to be involved with Omega, but fine.

You don't know everything that happened after you died and you're going to be pissed about that too. I killed Wyoming, but Omega had found a new host and an alien. He had a plan with them that could end the war and I couldn't let that pass by. We got on a pelican and a bomb planted on it caused us to crash.

That's the last thing that happened before we ended up with the Meta.

There's more to it than that, shit you really can't get because yeah, York, you are human and I'm not. You think you and Delta are close, try being an AI paired with another one for years. I could pull him, but that only got me so far. There's a lot of ways I fucking hate him, but it's not that simple. It never is.

See? Now we're on the same page and I kind of get it.

I don't agree- but I get it.

I never asked you to agree. I'm not asking you to help clean up any of my messes. I know what Omega is capable of better than anyone else.

But he was still my partner.

I still think it's a bad idea. Not because he pisses me off but because him being around compromises you worse than Church or the director. And the last thing anyone needs here is to be compromised. I say this as someone that has been frequently compromised and fucked a lot of shit up in the past few weeks.

Don't york it up, Tex. If you're hell bent on keeping him there, have a spotter.

Like who? Church is pissed and I don't even know if he can shoot and the Director's a sad, old man. Not many options around here.

Someone not from home. Someone unbiased. Who else do you know?

No one I'd trust in my home.

I'll be fine.

Fuck it. Have Caboose be your spotter. He can't do any harm.

Not happening. Caboose hosted Omega for a while. It wasn't pretty and I doubt Caboose would want to be around Omega.

...wait THAT was the bad man he was talking about in his dream?

See if I didn't already hate Omega I really do now. Caboose is just a kid. Jesus.

I lost my body so Omega jumped to the closest person he could find and that happened to be Caboose. You should have seen him with the pacifist medic he got stuck with after that.

THere were still pacifists during the war?

Yeah, in the form of the shittiest medic you ever saw. He was stuck with him for a while. Way longer than he would have liked despite me having a body again.

...I don't know if I should laugh or- no. No I"m gonna laugh.

Okay no, seriously- ask something. Anything. I'll answer honestly.

Why do you really give a crap about Church? You punched him first thing I got here and I doubt it's all about Delta and that Alpha bullshit.

He got the rawest deal out of all of us. He didn't want to get made and then spent most of the first few months of his life tortured regularly.

Sure he's an asshole and sure I didn't handle him being here that well- but I don't really blame HIM for what happened. Just what he reminds me of, and that's something he can't help.

Did you ever apologize for punching him?

Yep. Just recently, really. Didn't know how to bring it up before.

Good. He's pissed off enough without adding more to it.

Pissed off seems to be his default state.

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